When I was fourteen I experienced my first psychoanalysis by
a very frail looking middle aged man. As I cheerily spoke to him
about all of the trauma I experienced in my childhood; he could
see through the ‘grocery list’ recitation of the events of my
childhood and tried to break through the formerly impenetrable
facade that I had carefully built up with the bricks and mortar of
escape. Along with a prescription for prozac he asked me to purchase
a journal and complete the following homework assignment (by the
way-this will be today’s entry ;)) Write whatever comes to your
mind using the hand that you typically do not write with. See
what it is that comes out. As per usual I waited until mere hours
before my next appointment with said Dr. to complete my homework;
a task I avoided because I was afraid of catching a glimpse of my
deeply scarred little girl within. With hesitation I opened my journal
and placed the pen awkwardly in my passive left hand. The barely
legible scrawl that came out on the page was the scrawl of a deeply
troubled little girl. I sobbed as the violent words appeared on the
page-possessed by the darkness that consumed that unhealed
little one. After I wrote it I read what I wrote-the pain that had been
unleashed was palpable.
What came after that was years of necessary, intense and varied
therapy. That was the day I realized that my life would always be
segmented until I healed what was broken within.
How is a soul supposed to evolve unless the scars are treated
and heal. It may seem as though we are opening wounds to
get there, but really these wounds never did heal-they just
got buried by the debris of our fast-paced lives.
I have to be honest; I have neglected my inner child directly
and without meaning to for many years so I was trepidatious
about doing the inner child meditations below.
During the meditations I came face to face with myself as a
seven year old child. Seeing her again was painful but
necessary. I did’t know if I had enough to offer her; but
I realized that she needed me and I put my stresses aside and
just held her-saying nothing.
Doing these meditations verified one thing I have been
coming to terms with; we can attain happiness but there
will always be challenges to try and overcome. Life is about
ying/yang; dark/light; good/bad…
Through the darkness we conquer, the more visible and
satisfying the light that penetrates.
Today’s focus is on reconnecting and nurturing your
inner child; in doing this you have the opportunity to
heal the wounds that keep you from moving forward.
Journal Entry-Accessing your Inner Child:
Write whatever comes to your mind using the hand that you typically
do not write with. See what it is that comes out.
One Hour Physical Activity: Spend this time doing something
you loved as a child.
Inspiring Talk-TED Talk-Hold Onto Your Inner Child
Short Film that Is About Inner Child Dreaming
Healing Affirmations for your Inner Child
Inspired & Healing Reading-Reconciliation
Link to a Preview of the Book
Evening Meditation: Inner Child
May You Reconnect & Heal Your Inner Child
Much Love, Peace & Namaste Em