My darkest hours typically followed a traumatic or heartbreaking
incident that occurred in my life; a death, a loss of job or relationship,
high amounts of stress…But there were some times where the darkness
threw it’s suffocating cloak over my head for no tangible reason. My
life was seemingly smooth and the darkness would invade the confines
of my mind leaving me confused and trying not to submit to the
detrimental thoughts that consumed me. I could not understand why
I was so unhappy when there was nothing I could see in my path that
was a blockage. Maybe my internal soul sensed it and whispered unconsciously
for me to pay attention and analyze what I was receiving from my surroundings.
Fortunately I always have faith that the cloak of darkness will lead me
to a more enlightened and brighter path. I finally searched and found others
that share this philosophy (see the speakers below). In order to embrace
a new and more well suited path, we must dredge through the life
threatening swamp full of thorns and quicksand. Linda Miller said it best
in her TED Talk (below) about how there are two sides to the door
of depression and one of them is a Spiritual Awakening. Like life’s
Ying and Yang, I have always believed that unless one experiences
pure pain and darkness one cannot appreciate ecstasy and
intense unadulterated joy. Could then, depressions purpose be
to slow us down so that we can see the intricacies of what led us down
the changing path more clearly? Could it be a time for us to get back
or transform into our true self? Could it be an awakening to allow
us to embrace and appreciate the happiness unconditionally and without
blockages when we emerge from our trans-formative cocoon?
The days I believe that this feeling will lead me in the right direction
I can move forward, the days I can’t see the possibilities I feel consumed
by sadness and despair. So even if the idea that I am experiencing a
spiritual awakening is a placebo ; it assists me in getting through this
time in my life with a more hopeful and anticipatory attitude.
Today’s focus is the realization that life is meaningful and
so are the steps along our journey. We need to trust and embrace
them with the knowledge that the universe will take care of us.
Morning Meditation-Kundalini Awakening
Journal Entry; Write about a traumatic or depressing time in
your life; what led you there? Did you come out the other side
more enlightened? What changes occurred as a result?
Two Sides of One Door: Lisa Miller
Psychosis or Spiritual Awakening
Depression is a Disease of Civilization
Evening Meditation-A Spiritual Treasure Chest
Much Love, Peace & Namaste
Em
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